New Year = New Outlook
Happy New Year to every one…and a new year it is indeed! <<<With my late a**…
And yes, I haven’t posted anything since my break up with Prototype. And yes, it hurt THE HELL out of me. I wasn’t in a robe eating Breyer’s all day and night…but I did have “stare- off- into- space –while-biting-my-nails-even-while-people- were- present” moments from time to time.
Over the holidays’ wasn’t any better either… I felt like I had a “Christmas Carol” of my own; but instead of being the loving Mrs. Cratchit, I was Scrooge; and the ghost of Christmas past and present brought just about every guy I ever dated, or had a relationship with, into my store (I work in retail) over the December month…weird. I mean even my high school sweetheart decided to drop by.
My co-worker asked me…”Where are you finding all these fine men?” (hey I don’t date slouches )…and no doubt they ARE handsome, well dressed, well spoken, come from good familes, AND educated …(again I don’t date slouches)…but none of them are the one. Like, I really can’t imagine spending the rest of my life with any of them; where as other women would gladly say” Hell I’ll take him!” in a heartbeat. And that made me ponder several questions:
- Am I too picky?
- Why didn’t it work out?
- Do I really know what I want in a man?
- Do I need to change my occupation on Facebook from public to private?
And when I tried to answer these questions, I conjured a “maybe”, a “no”, a “hell yes!”, and a blank. Also in that process of pondering, I noticed an intriguing trend in my dating habits…I am attracted to assholes!
What a harsh freakin’ reality! But a reality nontheless. I love quick witted, smart alec-types. I dig those kinds of men…they keep me on my toes and keep others in their place, but geez when they begin to turn that trait I love so much on me…that’s where the problems arise. Don’t get me wrong, not all of them were assholes; some were cool, but there just wasn’t enough chemistry to continue… and that’s quite fine too, but the majority,unfortuanately, were assholes. :-\
So this year, instead of dating the same kind of guys thinking I’m going to achieve a different result…I’m revamping my “dream man” list (Yes, I have one of those). I will be removing anything that could be a possible synonym for “asshole” (i.e.smart alec, quick witted, savvy a.k.a. slick) and replacing them with qualities that REALLY matter like “…How well he treats his Mother and sister(s)”…and grown-up words like “family-oriented” and”chivalrous”. The rest will be chucked onto my “Black List” with the numbers of individuals I have blocked from 2011, because in 2012 I’m just not available for nonsense…you should’nt be either. 🙂